say hello to my favorite panties ever
me: *obsessively weighs myself*
me: *counts every calorie*
me: *fasts for 24+ hours regularly*
me: *lies about eating to loved ones*
also me: I don’t have an eating disorder, i’m faking it
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- Me:
- Me:
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- Me: ya what the fuck
- Me: fuck this, I'm allowed to eat and I'm gonna eat !!!
- Me: *binges
- Me: oh god I wanna die
- Me: *eats 120 calories*
- Me: oh this shouldn't be too bad, everything's fine!
- Also me: oh my god why did I think this was okay, I feel like trash and I want to die.
Anonymous asked:
if being honest, do u follow all of those rules? is that possible? i genuinely am a shit human and wanna know if those are possible to do, not in like a spite towards you!
lmao ur right it is a very strict set of rules and while it is possible for me do all this in a week, it’s very difficult and the amount of discipline it takes does wear me down so every now and then i slip up and binge or spend a lot of money or (very often) put-off homework/due dates and what not. i struggle with perfectionism so while it’s unhealthy that i even have this list, i still try to reconcile that by keeping in mind that i am human and it’s okay to mess up as long as i don’t stop and give up completely. i actually don’t usually like rules, especially ones i see on tumblr that are very harsh (like meanspo/“don’t eat over 1000 calories or you’re a fat cow”), because of the previous point.
- Me: I'm a fat piece of shit who can't stop eating
- Also me: (actively shoveling food down my throat)
- Me: *knows that this is a horrible mental illness and that I'll never be happy with myself and will eventually either have to recover or die*
- Me: haha can't wait to be thin! :) I'll be so happy and I'll feel great and be healthy! :) :) :)
me: man i sure am hungry but i dont know what to eat
brain: then just fucking eat nothing
me: understandable have a good day
i’ve been taking addies for the last two days which has 1) made me super fucking productive and 2) made me so productive i forget to eat so in these last two days alone i’ve probably only consumed maybe 1000 calories